I don't know where to begin... I'm truly at a loss for word. I type something then I erase it. I want to tell you all everything but don't know how to. I was truly blessed with the most amazing father in the whole entire world. No joke! I had everything and I was loved like no tomorrow by him. I traveled the world with my parents, I was pushed to try new and exciting things throughout my life. My father told me I could do anything I wanted to. I always got reassurance from my dad. He called me 24/7 when I was upset. His famous words were if you're mad or upset, get out and workout. Run or do something active to feel better. I try my hardest to live by his rules.
When I heard that my father had Prostate cancer I was terrified. I actually was pregnant with my daughter at the time. Unfortunately, my father had the mindset that he could fix it by himself. He never ever wanted to burden us with his problems. Unfortunately, the Cancer had spread to his bones. He was such a fighter. He barely complain to us. Even on his toughest days he asked about us, the kids or even work. These past couple of years have been very rough on our family...
Well, the fight has officially ended for my father, Nicolaus. On April 18th he took his last breath with my mom, brother and myself by his bedside. It was the most magical and slightly odd thing I have ever experienced in my life. I will never forget his last gaze, his last breath... His last everything! He's now at peace. I'm truly devastated and my heart is broken. The one that I more concerned for most is my mom. She's a fighter... but that was her best friend for over 40 plus years. Not a lot of people have or had the marriage that they had. It was truly a match made in Heaven. She is extremely lucky to have had him!
I will be just fine... I know God has my father & he's now extremely comfortable. Not gonna lie... I wish I was a fly on the wall up in heaven {smile}. All of your prayers and loving support is helping us. Pray extra hard for mom.
Rest in peace dad... I love you with all my heart! I will teach my children what you have taught me. Love and respect! I will be back stronger than ever... I am a fighter too!
xoxo
Alexandra
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